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| PsiGen |
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| Write a journal entry from everyone's favourite emotion manipulator. Her feelings following the loss of Tyler? Was she ever attracted to Jesse? What about her growing suspicions about Adam? And her secret powers she hid from the rest of Mutant X. |
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| imjuzakyd |
| Posted: Mon Mar 14, 2005 6:31 am |
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Lazarus Syndrome
I don't know, but after my untimely death at the hands of Caleb, I suddenly felt a growing change occur in the team.
Brennan started to grow more and more distant. I could feel his guilt for bringing me in that club where I met the vampire who almost stole my life away from me. I see him trying to transfer all his attention to Shalimar, perhaps to avoid hurting me once again. I wish I could tell him that I never blamed him for what happened.
Shalimar, on the other hand, has been more protective of me, more careful in making sure that I'll be all right whenever we go to missions. Sometimes I feel that she's afraid to lose me once again, and because of that she's trying to exclude me from all physical, dangerous activities. I need to show her I can take care of myself.
And there's Jesse. We've become closer since the incident. I feel he's the only one who'd truly understand me, who wouldn't try to change me or protect me too much. And I really appreciate what he's doing. I just wish I could do the same for him.
And Adam. Day by day I become more and more suspicious of him, of his activities. I only try to control myself so as not to enter his mind and find out what he's been hiding from us, because I'm sure he's hiding something. And I swear, I'll find out what it is sooner or later. |
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| imjuzakyd |
| Posted: Tue Mar 15, 2005 9:45 am |
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A Breed Apart
Today something weird happened to all of us. We had what Adam called a growth spurt. As a result I am now endowed with a "mental bazooka," as Brennan non-enthusiastically pointed out. I think he only said that because I almost hit him with my blast. What a baby.
Anyway, I'm actually excited with how my powers are evolving. That means that I can participate in more physical work, that I can finally kick some GSA butt! Now I can prove to everyone, especially to Shalimar, that I'm not some kid that they always have to protect.
Can't wait for some action! |
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| imjuzakyd |
| Posted: Thu Mar 31, 2005 10:08 am |
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Shock of the New
The moment I bumped into him in that club, I knew he was the only one I could trust as of the moment. We instantly made a connection. I couldn't describe it, but right there and then I knew Brennan would be an important part of my life.
That's why I went back for him.
I was scared -- so scared of what was going on in me, and I felt that he was the only one who could understand. Sure, Shalimar and Jesse must have known how it feels like to be different, but I've called them freaks and I'm afraid that they do not want me right now.
And now Brennan's caught by the GSA. And I couldn't do anything about it. That's why I had to go back with Adam and his team to the Sanctuary. We need to find Brennan. I need to find him again. |
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| imjuzakyd |
| Posted: Fri Jul 01, 2005 12:55 am |
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At Destiny's End
He's dead. The one true love I ever had is dead. And it's all my fault. If I had only listened to him when he warned me to stay away from him, he would still be alive right now. If I haven't been so stubborn to insist on the connection we have, he wouldn't have sacrificed his life for me. So many ifs. So many regrets. But he's still dead. And he won't come back anymore.
I guess I now understand how Shal have felt when Richard died. Or Jesse, when Amanda died. But it's still not the same.
Richard... Shal didn't have to watch him die enclosed in a glass vault, as he slowly slipped away because of the poison seeping into his body. No, Shalimar was given the priviledge to spend time with the one she loves even up to Richard's last moment. I wasn't given that chance.
I think I now understand how much I've hurt Jesse when I lashed out at him after Amanda died. He didn't even had the chance to protect Amanda from what had killed her. And there I was, too absorbed with my own welfare to give notice to the pain that's
engulfing my teammate. And yet, Jesse was the only one who really stood up for me when I wanted to be with Tyler. He didn't care if I had been mean to him before, he still helped me out.
Unlike Brennan. Honestly, I'm very angry with him right now. How could he be so cruel? 'Fate's a real bitch.' How could he say that? I can't understand why he had to act that way towards Tyler. Tyler's my soulmate. He doesn't have the right to meddle with my life. I'm not the scared girl he had found in the club a year ago! I've changed a lot, I'm even stronger than him in so many aspects. Why is he still being so protective over me? I can take care of myself! I'm not a little girl anymore. I'm not his responsibility.
Things will never be the same again, not with Tyler gone. Sure, I can put up a mask of tranquility everytime I'm with them, I'm very good at that now, but deep inside I know hings will never be the same. I lost my soulmate. He's gone. And with him, a big part of me left too. |
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