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| AndyPsionicFeral |
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Story written by me, Lem. Dont know where it really came from and I have talked to some of you about it so dont spoil it if you know whats going on. I'm going to post the beggining of it and let you tell me what you think. I will not post the rest until after I get feedback. There are secrets and twists in the story and its still in process. I am still writing it. I am stuck in a part but I am working with a friend to get through it. Now her is the story. Tell me what you think.
"Can we try?" by Lem T.
Jesse sat on his bed after a nap and a dream that he couldn’t get out of his head. Why am I feeling this way? Passion, longing, was it lust? Why? Why all the dreams and all this feelings that I cant understand, I never though about this before. Why now? Now that things are starting to feel comfortable with everything else, now I start questioning my feelings? I have already caught myself staring. Thank goodness for self control or I would have already phased through that wall…yeah, I would have done it a while ago. “You have no idea how bad I want you.......”
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Was he staring at me earlier on? And what was that in his eyes…was that longing, sadness, was it lust? What’s going on? Is he falling for me? That’s not possible. We have been friends for the longest time and he has never shown signs of liking me more than as a friend. But, what is he is really staring at me with that… lust? What if he really wants me? What do I do then? What are my feelings towards him? Can I even go there? Well… its just one step further, we are already friends, and it’s not like I have someone steady at the moment. But, could Jesse really be into me?
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The day went on and the team had been divided into two different missions, a guy and a girl in each team. One team returned that same night while things got complicated for the other and they had to stay out longer. Jesse sat in his room thinking about how the other team might be doing. He was worried and haunted by the feelings that were troubling him. How was he supposed to act or what was he supposed to do about it. Would the team member he was fantasizing about accept the feelings he was having or would he be rejected? |
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| Posted: Wed May 17, 2006 1:43 am |
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So far we know that Jesse is trouble by his feelings and that the other person is too. They are both fighting with the feelings and they dont know if to accept them or to reject and denie them. In this chap you'll see the struggle a bit more and the decisions made.
Disclaimer: I dont want to offend anyone so as you find out who the characters are, you make the decision as if you want to keep reading or not. It is up to you. And this story is also a challenge from friend so dont hold it against me as an author, as a person or as an RPer.
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“Damn it! Why am I so stupid and sensitive?” I am falling for the person that I know I can’t have. I am so stupid. My feelings would never be accepted the man has had a female date ever since we met. Why would he go for me? He is damn straight, and I’m straight or at least I though I was until a few months ago. But I am straight. I don’t like other guys; I’m not turned on by them. But if I’m straight, then why am I feeling all this feelings for Brennan? Have I misplaced my feelings for someone else on him?
There was a knock on the door followed by Emma’s voice. “Jesse?”
“Come in…”
“Jess…”
“I know. I’m and idiot…” he said shaking his head. Emma walked over to him and sat next to him on the bed. “What’s wrong with me?”
“Jesse, you are not confused. Those feelings you are having are all genuine.”
“But I’m not gay Emma.”
“I know but you have developed intimate feelings for another man. It’s a touchy subject and al I can do is be here for you as a friend. I can’t figure this out for you. Just know that no matter what you choose or decide, I’ll stand by you.”
“Thanks Em…”
The embraced before Emma stood up to leave the room. “Em...?”
Emma turned to look at Jesse. “Yes?”
“Do you think Brennan will be mad or feel odd about this?”
“I don’t know Jess. All I can say is that he cares for you deeply. The extent of that care is what I am not certain about. But you need to figure out your feelings and be ready for anything. Don’t put your hopes too high so you don’t get crushed but look at both sides of the coin and be ready for it to drop on either one of its faces. Once you have done that, you need to approach Brennan and let him know.”
“I’m scared”
“I know Jess”
“Thanks Em.”
“You are very welcome.” She smiled and left the room. Jesse stayed in his room. He needed to run some check ups on Sanctuary’s computers and systems but he had to figure out his own internal systems first.
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Brennan and Shalimar where done with their mission early and were on their way back to Sanctuary. They decided to stop for some drinks and to relax a bit. The mission had been hectic. They entered a bar that was almost empty. It was late and only the regulars were there. They sat at the bar and asked for their drinks as they talked about parts of the mission and unimportant things. Once they were done, they exited the bar and since Brennan was way more than tipsy, Shalimar had to drive them back.
“Shal…” Said Brennan staring forward and occasionally out of the window.
“Yes…” was Shal’s answer. She was thinking more about her warm bed at Sanctuary.
“Can I ask you a personal question?”
Shal’s thoughts of her bed were now gone and she was concentrated on listening to Brennan and driving. “Ok…. Shoot.”
“Ok… but don’t look at me weird for it.”
Ok was all she could say as she raised an eyebrow. Where is he going with this?
“Have you ever had a feeling of care so deep for someone of the same sex that you have confused it with love. Not friendship love but romantic love?”
“Ok you said to not look at you funny but I can’t help it. I think you had way too much to drink.” She looked at Brennan. His face was completely serious. He wasn’t kidding about the question. He really wanted an honest answer. “Brenn… are you telling me that you are confusing caring feeling for another guy with love?”
“No, not me, but is it possible?”
That was way too defensive. What are you hiding Brennan? “I guess it could be possible. It’s never happened to me though.”
“Hmm….”
“Brenn, I have to tell you something.”
Brennan was deep in though about the whole situation when her voice snapped him out of it. “What?”
“I think your question has to do with the relationship between you and Jesse.”
Brennan was surprise at her guess but tried to play it off. “Ha! That’s crazy Shal.”
“Brenn, don’t lie to me. I can catch it in your voice. It doesn’t take a psionic to figure you out you know.”
Brennan stayed quiet. He was scared as to how people might react. Why was he even considering this?
“Brenn, all I know is that every time Jesse is in the same room as you or every time he passes by you or even looks at you, he leaves a trail of pheromones that’s of the charts. He is into you. I can tell. You need to be careful around him and you need to figure out your feelings towards him. I don’t want to see neither of you get hurt.”
Brenn was on the verge or breaking down. Too many drinks and embarrassing exposure of feelings he didn’t know if he could handle was a bit too much. “Shal…”
“Brenn, you need to figure this out. I’m fine with it.”
Once again there was quiet in the car. Brennan was deep in thought. The alcohol in his system evaporating rapidly due to all that was going on. Could he really love Jesse in a way other than as a brother? They drove silently towards Sanctuary. Once there they parked the car and Brennan slipped out quietly once again and headed for his room. Passing by Jesse’s room at this time and with the whole struggle within him was not helpful.
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OK now go to the other thread and review. These whole chapter is also on ff.net if you want to read it there. here is the link... http://www.fanfiction.net/u/1044217/ Now go review and tell me what you think. Dont kill me off with Flames, constructive critizisim is much better. if you dont like it tell me and stop reading it. but dont go all of on me. Laters, love you guys, Lem. |
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